Thrusday morning, and i really am terrified because the truck from our production plant in bandung has not arrived yet. I've been bombarded with phone calls, emails and sms from dissatisfied clients since 2 days ago. Told all of them already that there is nothing that i cud do about it, but i'm the kambing item of the company, so i just have to deal with them sadly. Dimarah2in again and again. Anyhow, this morning i came to the office and thought that i deserved a break. So i shut down my mobile and refused to pick up the phone at all. I made myself a cup of torabika and wasted hours and hourse reading news online.
One headline news had got my attention this morning: CONFESSION OF A RUSSIAN EX-SPY. All that i can say to him is "I feel you, my friend!! Even running away from angry customers is hard enough. Imagine running from the government of your country. Ckckckc.. Good luck to you!" Here's the story that i paste from yahoo..
"MOSCOW - Late one night in April 1998, three government security agents met at a guest house outside Moscow to make an extraordinary video in which they claimed their bosses had ordered them to kill, kidnap and frame prominent Russians. The tape, the Federal Security Service officers said, was a kind of insurance, to be released only if something happened to one of them."
"Now one of them, Alexander Litvinenko, is dead, poisoned with a rare radioactive isotope in London last November. British police on Tuesday accused another ex-KGB agent, Andrei Lugovoi, in the killing. No motive was stated. Lugovoi denied involvement, saying the decision by British officials was politically motivated.
The tape, though, suggests that from the time Litvinenko first blew the whistle on his bosses almost a decade ago, he knew he was a marked man."
In the video Litvinenko and his colleagues sit on couches with Russian journalist Sergei Dorenko, announcing their dislike at the violence and immorality they claim had infected the Federal Security Service, or FSB, an agency they were once proud to serve. Dorenko,whom is now a talk-show host of a radio station, made the tape available to The Associated Press and The Wall Street Journal.
In the tape, Litvinenko confesses that he was ordered to beat up or plant a weapon on Mikhail Trepashkin, another former FSB agent who was imprisoned several years later for revealing state secrets.
The videotaped claim appears prophetic: Trepashkin, who investigated claims the FSB was behind a series of apartment building explosions that killed about 300 people in 1999, was arrested in 2003 after police said they found a gun in his car. His lawyers said the weapon was planted.
Trepashkin was convicted of disclosing state secrets, and is now in prison. Amnesty International has said that the charges "appear to have been politically motivated," and in 2005 accused the Russian government of denying him medical treatment.
Litvinenko admits in the tape that he is worried, but insists he is not fearful.
"I do understand that a security officer is not supposed to give interviews or appear on television," he said. "But now I realize the time has come. If I were afraid, I wouldn't do what I do now. But I fear for the life of my wife, my child." He believes the situation in the agency had become intolerable.
They stated that the reason they made the tape is "to describe actions by the agency which contradict the current law, with the criminal code and do not meet our moral demands."
Litvinenko claimed he was ordered to kill Berezovsky by Alexander Kamyshnikov, one of his superiors in the anti-crime department. Kamyshnikov denied the allegations in 1998.
Although Berezovsky does not appear in the video, he is an almost inescapable presence in it: Litvinenko had reportedly worked with the tycoon while still in the FSB. At the time of the taping, Dorenko worked for ORT television, which then was under Berezovsky's control. Litvinenko received support from Berezovsky after both of them fled to Britain in 2000 and were granted political asylum.
This year, Russian state television strikes back by reporting that Litvinenko allegedly forced another Russian in London to pretend to be an FSB agent sent there to poison Berezovsky. According to the report, Berezovsky used the phony plot to plead for asylum. Berezovsky has denied the allegation.
The implication, perhaps, was that Berezovsky may have ordered Litvinenko's poisoning in order to eliminate a witness to the alleged ruse. In Russia, there is widespread speculation that Litvinenko was killed by foes of the Kremlin to discredit President Vladimir Putin' . In the West, suspicion has fallen on Russia's security services, acting with or without the support of the Kremlin. Dorenko said he believes Putin, who became FSB director a few months after the tape was made, had a hand in Litvinenko's death.
Dorenko said, "Of course, he didn't say, 'Kill him with polonium.' He was simply told, the guy had crossed the boundary, the guy had gone too far."
The Russian government has denied any involvement in Litvinenko's death.
Dorenko, who was an anchorman with ORT until he was fired in 2000, said he did not look into Litvinenko's accusations at the time because of the risk. "Frankly speaking, I was scared to investigate those cases, " he said. He also feared for the fate of his sources.
Dorenko stored the tape with friends until the time came
"If something happens to one of my comrades," one of the agents tells the camera, "only then would we want what we have now told you to be made public."
scary stuff!! i could not help wondering that there is no right and wrong in this world. The one who has powers determines the rules of the game. There is no such thing as justice in this world. I was thinking what would happen to those guys whom have been marked for death by the high power. So what if they have managed to make a public confession on a tape? The high powers can make it disapper and twist the fact if they want to. It might gain public awareness of what is going on, that is if the public believes in what Litvinenko said, but that's about it. Sooner or later the public will accept the fact that that's just the way the system operates. Everyone has different roles to play in this world. Some are meant to be kambing hitam like me, Some have to be ordinary civilians, some are born to make it big in hollywood, and there are a few whom have to be martyrs.
