back into You

how fast cud it be yah? udah hari sabtu lagi. so exhausting. cape banget. kurang tidur, kurang makan, kurang terawat in the past 7 days. geez. i just realised that when life is moving in a fast pace, sometimes you take everyday life for granted. You dont really think about what is going on, who you are, or even be conscious of what you are doing. You just roll into activities after activities and by the time you got home, you were like "What have i been doing in the last 24 hours? ko udah malem lagi?" This is always happening to me when i am trapped in a busy schedule, like all of the activities in your life is timed by the hours. 10-11 meeting A, 12- 13 meeting B, 14-16 meeting C, you hardly can squeeze time to breathe.

Yahhh sekarang sih berasanya kaya gitu lagi, only that instead of having meeting A,B, and C, i am more of a ngopi sama A, lunch sama B, telepon sama C, shopping sama D, nyalon sama E, then followed by dinner sama F and movie sama G. You think that's relaxing? well, you guess wrong! Talking to different people continuously in one day is exhausting. Sama ajah kaya kerja EO ato pi-are ato marketing. BEcause you dont just show up and be there, you actually have to "be there". You listen to them, converse intelligently (yes, btw we are still hot on stock market and bonds) halaaahh... i have been lying down on bed at 3 in the morning and thinking, "what a hekk of a day?" PAdahal cuman maen doang sharian, tapi tubuh jiwa raga ko kaya abis diperes abis2an?? humm...

but then again, i am thankful for being in a fast paced life period at the moment. though the other day, i went to bed at 3 and found myself udah bangun jam 7 pagi. I catched up on my morning prayer and saat teduh, only then i got the opportunity to really "get into me". Praying is a good way to remember who you are, because i am sure that many times we forget who we are, to see the big picture of what is happening in your life, to anyalise your goals and see whether you are still on track or not. And when you really know the answers to all of those issues, i think you wouldnt feel lost eventhough trapped in a fast pace life. You think?