diagnose with neurosis

The most complicated thing in life, is a woman's brain
okay. when one day i ever happen to become famous, that line would be one of my famous lines.

funny how your mood and feelings will change as an impact of changes in your thoughts.
one second, i'm happy, cool and collected, the next second something happens, then out of nowhere, i dont know how, but negative thoughts just suddenly come into my mind. Then BAM! i become a dramatic neurotic woman.

Just last night, my bf didnt answer my question right away, and i just did not know how the hew did negative thoughts could ever occur to me. "That's it. he never listens to me. he doesnt care, never understand me bla bla bla" I hang up the fone and practically crying. I mean, how silly could tat be? the poor man was brushing his teeth. for gucci sake.

the funnier thing is, negative thoughts do not occur for only a second. it stays in our mind long enuf to be accumulated into bigger negative thoughts. "he aint listening to me. what's up? never happen before? what was he thinking? WHO is in his mind rite now? could it be tat person or tat person? ok. the likelihood of him meeting tis person is bigger than possibility of meeting tat person? if they really met, what did they talk about... and so on and so on" DAMN does this only happen to me?

The next thing i know, i was obsessed. Cant stop drinking coffee, cant stop eating chocolate, cant stop watching korean and mandarin drama series, and CRYING my eyeballs out. ew! (BTW, watch tat muvie: pangeran kodok. So, damn Gud..!! romantic, very cute, aint corny, not causing unecessary merinding2 haha) and then after an hour of drama queen moment i am like "What the hew just happened to me? what was all the crying all about? i'm so pathetic" Then i take a second to rationalise everything, and for gucci sake, when we do really utilise our brain for good use, it does help to stabilise our feelings. "Okay, what's really happenning, we've been talking about this and that, and the possible reasons for him to act such a thing is because of this and that. He might be thinking about this or tat person. nothing wrong with tat. He meets the person, nothing wrong with tat as well. what could possibly happen, okay the worst tat could happen, okay i tink i still can handle tat. problem solved."

DANG..!! then wat's the purpose of an hour- crying-session?
so,
what is happening to tis woman, you say?
a) approaching PMS
b) starting to really like my bf, that i becomin posesive
c) suffering neurosis syndrome
d) rrr.. u have any other possibilities?


anyhow, bottom line: whatever the answer is, i determine to be cured. yes. i shud try to inject my brain with positive thoughts. wif bible verses possibly. tat way i wud not be infected with deadly virus.

(afterall, boys will be boys. they are cuek, never pay attention to details, dont watch the words that come out of their mouth, they watch tv and play computer games while talking to us on the fone. well and brushing teeth too. we just have to live with tat. )