wake up gurl!

• saturday afternoon, 16:50, san2'z apartment, east perth city view, jazz tone by syahrani, and not forgeting a mug of cold coffee, where else i would rather be?!

• eniw, while i was having my quiet time this morning, i've realised that i've let my emotions hung long just because of sum kind of, so called, romance drama. i remembered that in the past 2 wks i've been praying, wishing and nagging to the Lord, seeking excuses to make tis drama work.

well, it's true that he and i have different goals and dreams in our lives, but we still can make it work well, it is true that we are separated by the distance, but tat make me miss him more

well, it is true that the way we live our lives are different, but we also have things in common

well, it is also true that he does not love God the way that i do, but .....

WAKE UP, gurl!! You are making a fool of yourself.

• and look at the poem that u just wrote yesterday, i'm losing myself! Enough of the game,enough of the drama.I am the one who's in denial. i dont know what i want, compromising what is important to me the most. Get a grip, gurlfren!

• When it comes to relationship and dealing with feelings, it is very easy for us, venus-ians, to be fooled by our emotions and drama. It happens just like testoterone playing foolish games on the mars species. But then again, it is our choice on what we'll do with it. The key is again, focus and rationality. Separate feelings and brain, gurls, therefore when you feelings are playing tricks on you, let your brain slap you and wake you up!

• so here i am, feeling in control, happy and focused. It is true that we might be able to work it out, but i ain't putting my heart on a roullete, and you are to me, is a high risk investment, my dear. I've given myself 3 hrs max. of bete tyme today, with a lot of sinatra and brian Mcknight to feel bad and taking all the regret to let you go.

Au revoir, cool-guy!

i hate you but i miss you

Butterflies, yes you have brought them into my days

adrenaline rush is what i feel everytime i heard somebody mention you

blushes are so obvious, yes because you look at me in straight the eyes

i am captivated

i am addicted

why are you so good at making arguments and confrontation?

i hate it when you deny what i said

i hate it when our point of views are totally different,the opposite indeed

i hate the fact that you live you lyfe with such arrogance/humility

you are too proud and you are in denial

you are a genius and you are playing the field

i cannot define you

i cannot read what you want

i want to reach to you, but my pride is blocking my way,

but so do you

don't try to define me, your definition is wrong

don't try to change me, but hey it's worth trying if u dare

what kind of game are you playing my friend?

where have you been?

when are you going to apologise to me?

who are you anyway?

guess what, i've been hanging low since we said the last goodbye

guess what, i am referring to you, mister!

guess what, i hate you but i miss you

it came over me in a rush

it came over me in a rush, and i realise tat i like you so much

may be it's valentine mood, or it's the season approaching autumn

gw jadi super sentimentil, and hey like what the song says

it comes over me unexpectedly, i just feel this warm fussy feeling

in my tummy, i feel butterflies and i found myself smilling

starring at the ceiling in the middle of the nite, thinking of, well, u

only when i thought, that i like you so much, then comes the rush

a second rush, a second unexpected encounter with another you

and this time, i feel the chemistry

Not only the chemistry, i feel the zha zha zhu

i rarely feel this kind of feeling, this is even stronger than the first rush

this feeling only happen to me when i fell in love at the first sight

could it be that i feel the lust all over again?

you know,

the feeling that happens when the connection between you and him is so real

from the very first conversation you can tell

he is different from the rest

this is it, i tell myself, i am not going to let this feeling goes by

it came over me in a rush, and i realise that i really like you so much

but only when i think i have sunk deep in the moment

another third rush is striking

you gotta be joking, is this for real?

this time i feel that this is so real, this is reality

this is happening, this is not as strong but it is different

not unpredictable as the first and the second ones

this feeling brings the sense of calmness

this feeling brings you comfort and security

and i like this another you so much

give me a break,

is this normal?

well, then again, it came over me in a rush

and i realise that i like you so much

no harm in just feeling the rush, yea?

my valentine

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duhh krispee sekali valentine taun inih..gara2 ikutan confrence jadi ga bisa ngapa2in :( *well my valentine dates (there are 1o of them) are enjoying sunset cinema without me* tasyaa kta akhirnya harus break up jg yah taun ini...setelah 2 consecutive valentine together hahaha dikaw menyeleweng dariku...anyway, me saying "thank you" for all the messages, overseas fonecalls (sorry i didnt pik up the first one, it was 2 in the morning, u fool!), and flowers..and they more importantly, me want to thank you for all the loves..frenship loves, family loves, sister loves, brother loves, caring loves and all kind of loves from you, my loved ones. I am forever grateful to find such amazing lovers as you. So here's valentine message from linchew to all of u, love love love love love love love and love u.

going international?

global village

hum..coming back from indo, heading straight to more and more learning..*phew*Currently, i join an international confrence sponsored by curtin uni, called the Global Village on the move. Well, the only reason i signed up for this confrence is to get an exemption for my study, but then i think to my self; this is going to be scary, i know nobody!

i was thinking to skip the cocktail party, the introduction night. I thought it's going to be so garing to be at a party on my own, on a totally bule environment. But then when i flip thru' the confrence package, i saw a book wif a list of participants' names and fotos. To my surprise there are only 40 ppl going to tis confrence..i thought it's gonna be a 300 ppl kinda confrence.

...and *i'm just being a normal gurl here*, there are LOADS and i mean LOADS of so cute, so guanteeengg...guys attending the conference. They are French, Italians, Germans and well not forgeting the asians as well hahaha.. So think to myself, screw it! i'm going to the cocktail party.

So i was there, and to my disappointment, they are not as ow-so-cakep-it-hurts cman tetep lahh namanya orang italy yah tetep cakep dong hehehe but i was really enjoying the nite..malahan cewe2 yang me ketemu disanah jauh lebih cakep in persons..*so it work the other way around guys look better in fotos and gurls look good in persons* muahahaha...and they are all really frenly. i got a chance to talk to everyone and got a lot of frens tat nite.

there i attach foto of me and my *really really* beautiful and intellegent ladies, yukina (japan) and ivy (abc) hehehe *yang mo dikenalin gimme a buzz*, and yeaa i tink tis global village thingy is gonna be fun fun fun..

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

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