holiday black and white

well, take the lesson frm me. Dun let loose of ur rage under Any circumstance. Nu-uh! it does more harm to you than to anybody else. I've been filled up wif so much anger and presurre in the past few days. I want to blame the weather and work, but in the end it's all still my resposibility though. I was releasing my anger in a totally wrong way. I became so moody and unfoccused. I wrote nasty things in the blogspot * i wont delete 'em though* and it backfired me at the end hahaha *never mind, my skin is thick enuf* and that i made my boss *geleng2* big tymez.

i do understand now, why workin people are soo stressed out. It's better to sit in uni other than doin 9-5 job. It's burdensome. however, since all of us, sooner or later, have to work anyway, it's good to find a way of release of all the tension and pressure of work.

secret numero uno, i used to melampiaskan by overeating, which is really bad, coz tat causes me to feel bad abt myself in the end. So, eating is not an option. Shopping is also not an option, beacuse funnily enuf, when u kno how hard it is to make money for a living, u dun want to spend it on overnight indulgence. *ARGGHH this is a confession of a reformed shoppaholic*

so, i find the secret to overcome anger, rage, pressure and tension is to enjoy the simple pleasure in lyfe. I FORCE myself to laugh a lot, putting my extra energy to be enthusiastic in every lil thing tat i do. I cook, clean the house * and the office*, move furniture around..jus to give myself a good feeling at the end of the day. and spend the "energy" for anger sumwhere else. Hit the gym, swimming pool, or wherever. If u find out at the end of the day tat u are tired, u wont have any more energy to be mad. it's all good ^_^

AnYwei, I'VE been enjoying my hectic-but-blessed-lyfe. thank u my frenz *cha2+popoi for tha' phantom muvi 'N the gurls chat..fang2+ indra+ ein+ christina+ lebe+ tj+ moni+ mira+ devy+ steven+buddy and jojo=xmas dinner,co tai ti, tat titanic game and uno hehehe + robby+ chris+ albert+ ryan+ giri+my lopely Sylvie for the fast eddy laughing marathon...and of course the ROCKS for becomin' the place for me to "recharge" the power within' hehehe and last but not least, thxs to my boss *chandra en John Redy* the most amazing boss can't imagine holiday without u!

deal breaker

*phew* hot day @ the office...it's a good day to write abt the bad side of me...haahhaha...
well, i'm jus being a normal human being..and rite now i jus feel the urge to get the rage out of my solar system...so yeah, i thought, why not writing abt sumtings tat really make me go mad. we dont have to be nice all the tyme, dont we? :)

• i dont like to be copied!!

i'm honoured if my frens want to buy particular skirt or shoes that i wear, yesh even exactly the same one wif the same colour and brand. No problemo. But if sumone "steal" my style, dress up like me frm head to toe, then copy the way i walk, the way i talk, even copy the way i pronounce and say sum particular things. Tat's over the top. I dun like it if sum1 makes a prototype of my blogspot, or my writings. *believe me tis is not over reaction..my gurlfrens point out the exact words this person copy frm my blogspot* wat makes me angry the most, is tat these people got praises for what they do...*sorry, i'm only human. i dun like ppl get credit for wat i do ;p*

i dun mind competition, because whether we realise it or not, gurls will unconsciously compete wif each other. I truly acknowledge tat my gurlfrens are superior than me in many things, like fely in study, adel in singing, tine is the most likeable gurl in our community. I''m happy and so proud to be their fren...However, if sum1 is directly challenging me by stealing my identity, tat's unbelievable. why go after my close frens? and the guys whom i liked in the past? why doing things that i do, but u dont like? jus for the sake of wanting to prove tat u can do it better than me?

geezz...we're not in primary skool anymore for the search of identity rite?? i have no right to stop u, gurls for doing wat u do. i'm juz annoyed and for u, no matter how hard u try to be me, wat u copy are superficial things. Why dun u search inside urself and make the best out of gifts.

• i dun like people whose motto is "me, myself, and i"

arghhh....it's so tiring, even jus to spend a day wif these kinda people. All these ppl do is to talk abt themselves, cut u in the middle of ur story, and refer those to them, and it's all will always comes back to them. I have never favour one way relationship (friendship or watever kind). Relationship is about giving and receiving. if all these people do is only to take the other people for granted, take advantage of em, geezzz..tat's a deal breaker!

i do hav sum frens who like to ask for help, and when the problem is solved, they jus disappeared. Sum ppl. dun consider other ppl. feeling and situation. They laugh and enjoy their own happiness when other people are having bad days. Well, their excuse is tat, they dun want to get into other ppl. business. Is symphaty sumting tat's too much to ask?

i dun like ppl yang kecentilan...ngaca every minute, yang jalannya, ketawanya diatur2, yang kalo ngomong ama orang ga ngeliat ke mata but busy enjoying themselves.

worse come to worst, i meet sum ppl. who manipulate other ppl. feeling and weaknesses to get wat they want. Sum ppl. who olweis blame others no matter who is wrong or rite. Sum ppl. who throw degrading jokes on others. *either guys to gurls, or the fatty* sorry...ngaca dulu dong kalo mau ngejelekin orang!

i used to not liking orang yang lemot, but i got punishment jadi rada lemot jg gwnya gara2 kebanyakan minum kopi myself hahahaha....but hey, i'm doing my best to improve it hahaha.. it takes tripple the efforts for me to become more careful and teliti..so yeahh..pls understand my circumstances frens hahahaah... ^_^

so yeah..there goes my *uneg2* in the office today...i'm not pointing at any specified person, so dun comes up to me slap me in the face :p

but if U are reading my writing now, and thinking of making a similar kind of this, well u kno wat tat mean.

update me

hummm udah lama ga nulish blogspot...gara2 kerjaaa nehhh...cape pisann...while my gurlfrens are in bdg nge-joged di embassy...i'm stuck here @ the office everyday..8-5 *how's tat!! for a part tyme job* wif the very hot weather...However, despite the workloads and all, rite now i rather be here than anywhere else in da world ^_^ yesh, i just found my self transforming to a workaholic, and no longer a shoppaholic.

so yeah...to all my frens in perth...pls visit my office in freo during business hours or call me in msn...turst me...no matter how much u love ur job...it's still dead boring to do office routine 6 days a week =( anyhow, thx to my awesome boss, he still allows me to browse the net when i have finito everything..

lyfe here in perh december...so garing mannnn!!! cannot tahan =( ga bisa ngegym gara2 kerjaan..makanan gw jg jadi junk-food semuah...so not healthy..*argh!!* untungnnya me kecapean...jadinya ga nge-gendutin hehehe..sedi jg seh ga bisa pulang indo...i missed too many events...my mum's bday, my coz' wedding, home-church xMaz, en my gurlfrens were partying in bandung!! *mauuu ikutannn!!*

i got tis quiz frm my fren diary...bole jg bwat menuhin blog ehhhe...here it goes..well, if anyone wants to copy it, i dun mind...juz shoot!

1. wat R u thinking at the moment? how to make more and more money
2. do you have a dobel personality? jus say i know how to menempatkan diri ;p
3. dark side or angelic heart? cerdik seperti ular, tulush sperti merpati hahaha
4. when u meet people at the first time, positive or negative thoughts? no thought at all
5. emotional rollercoaster? yepp...but i'm working on it...getting better though ^_^
6. optimistic or pesimistic? over-optimistic
7. your obsession? louis vuitton bags
8. you weaknesses? food, sama high-level gombal hehehe
9. favourite car? my mini!
10. if u are to swap lyfe with anyone, who would it be? my brother ahahahah
11. if u have to choose, much more (10 yrs) older or younger man? even if tat's 20 yrs, i'll go older
12. deal breaker of friendship? yang mulutnya ga bisa dijaga, yang tukang copycat, yang kcentilan
13. deal breaker of relationship? cheating
14. premarital sex? no
15. are u an independent woman? yeap! i can take care of myself, at least :p
16. are u a feminist? no, tat's the fall of every relationship!
17. fave flower? banyak..yang plg demen white lilies
18. fave music? diana krall, r'n'b
19. fear? being defeated
20. wat kind of book u are reading? christianity 'n' buku abt. money...
21. u follow technology? since i work for mobilfone company, yesh
22. fashion victim? i follow sex and the city muvi...
23. read news? only on wednesday or saturday
24. in one word, what do u look for in opposite sex? compatibility
25. candidate for presidency? anyone who sits in liberal or democrats