the thought that comes after a cup of coffee

lately, just have loads of thoughts about fear
what do you fear, what scares you the most?
it takes sumtymes before i realised my fear of being defeated
i dont want to fail or not winning or being helpless
i want to control my environment
have a plan, and confide in what i am doing
if i am not, then i stressed out
i freak out like a mad woman
in business policy 320 the term is called 'uncertainty avoidance'
you cannot handle ambiguity, your level of tolerance against risk is low
therefore, you are creating institution, rules and boundaries
simply to manage your risk and maximise the chane of winning
but no matter how well you manage your risk
no matter how well your preparation is
F E A R
is a phase that every mere human being has to face
i want to get it over and done with
it is one phase before you really enter the real battle
is a f i g h t a g a i n s t y o u r s e l f
how are you coping with your fear?
how do you overcome it?
i like to sink deep in silence, of course with companionship of caffeine
negative thought keeps rolling around
you keep portraying the worst case scenario
what if i can cope with the consequence, with the defeat?
i'm only one second away from insanity
GOD
and only God whom can reach to me at this critical turning point
been there, done that
in the end, DO THE MOST THAT YOU CAN DO AND EXPECT GOD TO DO THE IMPOSSIBLE
and while you are walking in dark valley,
a coffee partner and a hand that will hold yours are always helpful