i think lately, i'd been suffering this syndrom called quarter life crisis. (and i have not reached 25 yet, to be precise) but you know, life circumstances sometimes just press down a little too hard and squeeze you inside out. pressure after pressure just make you want to break down, but hey after 21 years of experiencing ups and downs, i should have known better huh!? being a drama queen and celebrating self pity parties wont help. it is destructive. a good cry every now and then is always permitted, but dwelling in sorrow too long only shows immaturity.
i know there are times when we really cannot help it, a period of time in where everything seems to fall apart, eventhough we want to be positive and look for the bright side of life, you just cannot stop the tears that always flow from your eyes, unconsciously. but hey, let 'em out, all the emotional baggage have to be released or else you just stacking up garbage inside. cry out loud, punch your pillow, eat chocolate, swipe your credit cards, laugh so loud eventhough it's a fake one, sing of tune in the shower, grab your faithful friends for coffee and tell them that same story that you've been telling them for the thousand times, watch sappy dramas and listen to mellow songs, and the most important thing, involve GOD in all of the above.
That's right, after a period of tyme, without you even realising it, the storm had passed, suddenly all the things that give you headache wont affect you anymore, i'm amazed myself, how could that even possible? i was like, yesterday i was crying when i thought of it, and today, the problem has not even been better by bits, but i'm cool with it. how is that even possible? After 21 years of experiencing failure, deep sorrow and pain, i just knew how that is ever possible. You believe in God. HE creates you. IF you allow Him to take care of your pain, HE will. He just stabilise your emotional mood swings overnight, and boom! i'm suddenly, amazingly, miracuously, feeling great.
Most of the times we just spent too much times overanalysing our problems, thingking too hard on how to overcome these obstacles, how we gonna react to people, and respond to those who hurt us. but well, if u want to make it simple. it will be. just let God take care of it. no bulls! it saves you time and energy. and in no time you'll be as happy as bananas (not a good metaphor, but you get wat i'm sayin rite )
so yeap, after the main storm is gone, of course there are little itsy bitsy things that you have to take care of, i've learnt this thing from the real life example of my very own best friend, the only one ms hindra sutjahyo --> how to pronounce your name, honey? hahaha. anyway she'd shown me how to leap higher after every time you fall. so, after recovering from a marathon of crying, it't time to close the book and get a new book. do something bigger than yourself, and in no time, you will not only forget your failure, but finding yourself in a higher stage of life.
see i always believe that failure is the best reason for the next big success. because of pain. i work harder. because of hurt i achieve more than others. because failure doesnt break me, it makes me a high achiever. uh-huh! it's time to regain that self confidence that's been lost along the way haha. i'd been so insecure in the past couple weeks that i forget who i am as a person. thanks to friendster, reading testimonials remind me again of how others see me and it does help to bring back the esteem. and watched joyce meyer tis morning and it just fire up my spirit right to the bull's eye! you have to suceed at being you!
the world today is putting presurre to make you an average normal person. a normal woman would do this and this. to be considered normal you should be doing so and so. but hey, the normal person never makes it to the top. so, block all of those negative complaints that the society makes, and keep pursuing ur dream. that's what i am doing right now :)
so yeah, i'm getting a grip and prouldy anounce that i am back on track. watch out for my next move, i'm leaping even higher.
i know there are times when we really cannot help it, a period of time in where everything seems to fall apart, eventhough we want to be positive and look for the bright side of life, you just cannot stop the tears that always flow from your eyes, unconsciously. but hey, let 'em out, all the emotional baggage have to be released or else you just stacking up garbage inside. cry out loud, punch your pillow, eat chocolate, swipe your credit cards, laugh so loud eventhough it's a fake one, sing of tune in the shower, grab your faithful friends for coffee and tell them that same story that you've been telling them for the thousand times, watch sappy dramas and listen to mellow songs, and the most important thing, involve GOD in all of the above.
That's right, after a period of tyme, without you even realising it, the storm had passed, suddenly all the things that give you headache wont affect you anymore, i'm amazed myself, how could that even possible? i was like, yesterday i was crying when i thought of it, and today, the problem has not even been better by bits, but i'm cool with it. how is that even possible? After 21 years of experiencing failure, deep sorrow and pain, i just knew how that is ever possible. You believe in God. HE creates you. IF you allow Him to take care of your pain, HE will. He just stabilise your emotional mood swings overnight, and boom! i'm suddenly, amazingly, miracuously, feeling great.
Most of the times we just spent too much times overanalysing our problems, thingking too hard on how to overcome these obstacles, how we gonna react to people, and respond to those who hurt us. but well, if u want to make it simple. it will be. just let God take care of it. no bulls! it saves you time and energy. and in no time you'll be as happy as bananas (not a good metaphor, but you get wat i'm sayin rite )
so yeap, after the main storm is gone, of course there are little itsy bitsy things that you have to take care of, i've learnt this thing from the real life example of my very own best friend, the only one ms hindra sutjahyo --> how to pronounce your name, honey? hahaha. anyway she'd shown me how to leap higher after every time you fall. so, after recovering from a marathon of crying, it't time to close the book and get a new book. do something bigger than yourself, and in no time, you will not only forget your failure, but finding yourself in a higher stage of life.
see i always believe that failure is the best reason for the next big success. because of pain. i work harder. because of hurt i achieve more than others. because failure doesnt break me, it makes me a high achiever. uh-huh! it's time to regain that self confidence that's been lost along the way haha. i'd been so insecure in the past couple weeks that i forget who i am as a person. thanks to friendster, reading testimonials remind me again of how others see me and it does help to bring back the esteem. and watched joyce meyer tis morning and it just fire up my spirit right to the bull's eye! you have to suceed at being you!
the world today is putting presurre to make you an average normal person. a normal woman would do this and this. to be considered normal you should be doing so and so. but hey, the normal person never makes it to the top. so, block all of those negative complaints that the society makes, and keep pursuing ur dream. that's what i am doing right now :)
so yeah, i'm getting a grip and prouldy anounce that i am back on track. watch out for my next move, i'm leaping even higher.
