confession

u dont have to be my close frens to see tat my admiration and err...love for me mum is a little bit overbearing ehehe...

wat can i do?? she's just too perfect and too lovable hehe if u've met her u'll fall in luv head over heelz instantly wif her as well, i guarantee....

anyway, she's the one in pink, nex to her best fren, then the one in red is my sis in law to be, at the back is my lil baby sistah, then my second mum hehehe and in case u forget, i'm the one in red and white *wink*

as a person she is just amazingly beautiful, not mentioning "bersinar" bcoz of Holy Spirit inside.. trus she is very strong, vry modiz..as u can see frm the pic huh..she's a trendsetter..very smart, hew funny she makes us laugh til we cry,a people person, evryone best fren, a great listener and advisor... anyway, her best trait is tat she honours the Lord...

me and yunkie hav olweis said if we are about to suceed big tymes in the future, tat's obviously bcos she sows too many seeds into the kingdom of God...therefore, we are the ones who will reap the great harvest ahhahaha

she is a perfect role model for a wife and a mom...eventhough she cant cook ahahaha she's better in shopping and make-up than in the kitchen..omygozz!! oh well, she's a little bit terlalu sabar though, sampai jadi tertindas ama me and yunkie yg emang suka semena2 ama mamiii..eheheheh apalagi kalo udah dengerin curhatnya kta orang..*wat a mum to do if the two kiddos are very special in term of goreng-adat nya hehehehe*

but we love her to death, and she is the one person tat we want to protect and of course, eventually make her the happiest mum on earth :D

before sunrise

tell you what, tis is 4 am in the morning, a fine saturday morning
location is yunkie'z room, he is asleep after eating too much lasagna
while i am stil here, dont even feel sleepy by bits
funny, i havent consume even a single dosage of caffeine today
well then, there must be countless unresolved issues,
questions, thoughts, "what if" kinda scenario in my head

well, guess tis is just the moment where my melancholy
temprament kicks in..*why 4 am in the morning?! D'oh!*
since i've been dating a perfect melancholy for almost half a year, by now
i guess i'm slowly turning into one, i'm becoming an over-the-top thinker
though i am a choleric in term of character, my thinking pattern is so much
showing plegmaticism <--- is there such a word?..but yeah, guess the bf
has changed me quite dramatically in the past 6 mths..
*gw diajak argumen terus sih..salah sendiri :)*

anyway, if u have been involved in an msn session wif me lately,
i must have asked you in regards of your opinion about
boundaries in dating
dont get me wrong here, tis is nothing to do with the three
letter word beggining with "s"
this is more like a dating ethic kinda question
my fave author, JohnC maxwell had written a book
there is no such thing as business ethic

to be quite honest wif you, i treat my dating experience
quite as the same as dealing business
in business, you have to set target, mission, vission,
know what u want, know your strength, know what u offer to your
counterpart, handle issue objectivelly, use facts and brain *uh-huh
not heart!* when it comes to decision making, bla bla bla
sounds similar huh?!

therefore, my point is....
if business = dating
if there is no such thing as business ethics
is there such thing as dating ethics?
you know the saying "all is fair in love and war"
confusing huh?!?

ethically saying, what is the measurement of loyalty,
what is the acceptable behaviour? how do you know
if u have crossed the line or just being realistic?
how do you know if your treatment to your partner is good enuf?
what is the perfect benchmarking for decision making?
should we justify the future based on past reputation of a person?

well, if you been thru sum of the situation tat i mentioned above
u must have known clearly wat i've been talkin about

since i have not found the answer myself...i guess for now
i will keep thinking and thinking and thinking.....