early saturday morning

the tyme in my desktop is 3:33

i have to wake up at 5, so quick nap is not a good idea. Oh well, let's kill the tyme with writing a thing or two scatter thoughts.

My everdearest friend, known as " a gurl who loves to smile" : Congratulations! remember ur promise. I have to be the FIRST to know hehehe

you know what gurl, what u have been through with Gibran had taught me a lot of things. (Remembering the fact that you and i are sharring the same thinking pattern) We are the species who always want to do the right thing, according to our definition. we want to be "a very lurus gurl", so play it safe all the tyme. we always try our best to forecast the future, creating boundaries, dont want to go out frm our comfort zone, refused to be hurt, therefore we stay naive as we are. (True?)

But hey, after following your so-sinetron-i-cant-believe-it story for almost a year (rite?), you have opened my eyes, about not being too naive, of not having to be pressured to follow the customs and ethics that we have lived by.

In making this statement, i am open to controversy and opposition, but hey! sometimes we cannot avoid the fact that we are being in the position of the bad gurls. Not saying, yes be proud of it and live your life that way forever. What goes around comes around, what you sow is what you reap.

It is just that, somehow in some circumstances, as mere mortal, we made incorrent (not wrong though) choices, which lead to undesirable outcome, which cause regret, which cause us to live with the consequences. And sometimes we wish we could turn back the time when we could slightly modify our choice, but since it cant be done, we wish for second chance. And well, usually second chance doesnt come as easy as the first knock on the door. Second chance needs a fight, and there will always be people who will get injured as a result of fighting. Whoever gets injured is always portrayed as the victim, and too bad, that leaves the people who are not injured to have no choice but to be called the "bad person"

we cant forever be naive. Life is too short to please everyone. Yeah, if u dare to bear the consequence, well challenge and risk are calling. Afterall, life is all about free will, making choices, rise and fall, making mistakes and learn from it, growing stronger through pain. It is meant to be fulfilled to the fullest huh :)