before sunrise

tell you what, tis is 4 am in the morning, a fine saturday morning
location is yunkie'z room, he is asleep after eating too much lasagna
while i am stil here, dont even feel sleepy by bits
funny, i havent consume even a single dosage of caffeine today
well then, there must be countless unresolved issues,
questions, thoughts, "what if" kinda scenario in my head

well, guess tis is just the moment where my melancholy
temprament kicks in..*why 4 am in the morning?! D'oh!*
since i've been dating a perfect melancholy for almost half a year, by now
i guess i'm slowly turning into one, i'm becoming an over-the-top thinker
though i am a choleric in term of character, my thinking pattern is so much
showing plegmaticism <--- is there such a word?..but yeah, guess the bf
has changed me quite dramatically in the past 6 mths..
*gw diajak argumen terus sih..salah sendiri :)*

anyway, if u have been involved in an msn session wif me lately,
i must have asked you in regards of your opinion about
boundaries in dating
dont get me wrong here, tis is nothing to do with the three
letter word beggining with "s"
this is more like a dating ethic kinda question
my fave author, JohnC maxwell had written a book
there is no such thing as business ethic

to be quite honest wif you, i treat my dating experience
quite as the same as dealing business
in business, you have to set target, mission, vission,
know what u want, know your strength, know what u offer to your
counterpart, handle issue objectivelly, use facts and brain *uh-huh
not heart!* when it comes to decision making, bla bla bla
sounds similar huh?!

therefore, my point is....
if business = dating
if there is no such thing as business ethics
is there such thing as dating ethics?
you know the saying "all is fair in love and war"
confusing huh?!?

ethically saying, what is the measurement of loyalty,
what is the acceptable behaviour? how do you know
if u have crossed the line or just being realistic?
how do you know if your treatment to your partner is good enuf?
what is the perfect benchmarking for decision making?
should we justify the future based on past reputation of a person?

well, if you been thru sum of the situation tat i mentioned above
u must have known clearly wat i've been talkin about

since i have not found the answer myself...i guess for now
i will keep thinking and thinking and thinking.....